Sin Awakening

Sometimes i feel God is far away from me. I have this feeling when i fell into sins. There was so many times i prayed to God and asked for God's forgiveness upon my sins. At that point i do realized that how bad am i and what i did really fall short of God's grace. But everytime i keep giving myself those flimsy excuses about my sins. Deep inside me, i really felt sad and bad about my attitude towards God. Supposedly, we have to know to appreciate God's salvation and He paid the precious price for us and allow us to reconcile this wonderful relationship with Him. At my depression point, God will comfort me with His very words. He let me know that i should confess my sins truely before. This is all i have to do!!!

Today, in my devotion, i read in Hosea 1:1-3. God revealed to me how His love for all of us as potrayed in Hosea's life. Hosea demonstrated prophetically what God would someday do for us through Jesus. Like Gomer, we are habitually unfaithful and yet we have been bought back at an enormous price (1 Corinthians 6:20).

I thank you Lord spoke to me and remind me always how precious am I. I have to remember what God has done on me and how can i stay in this godly life for His sake. I don't live the life myself, yet i live a life for God. The body is Him and everything in me is belongs to Him. I have to seek His permission in everything i do. Since He is the boss of us!!!^-^Amen!

Love Is Patient.

From my very young age till now, i am not in a very good attitude as a girl ought to be like. What i mentioned here the bad attitude is i have a very hot temper and not much patient at all. For me i think both of this are correlation. When i am impatient, i will lost temper easily afterward. But one thing God is really much gracious towards me is i have a very great boy friend in the sense that he is a very patient person particularly when facing people like me. May be it is so blessed to me, but it is not for him.

Deep inside me, i knew that i have to change and cant hold this temper anymore. I knew it is not an easy task for me. I did pray to God and ask God grant me strength to change to be more patient. The reason is, if i am not patient, this will torture the people around me especially those i am closer with - family.

I can lost my temper quite easily in so many occasions. It's really bad sometime! But God is so gracious to me, He always change me and mold me so that i am righteous in His eyes. Last night, during my devotion, God spoke to me through 1 Corin 13: 4 "LOVE IS PATIENT".

Impatient will bring harm to ourselves like those person who always impatient on the road will bring harm to not only ourselves but also others at the same time. So many accident cases are indeed caused by the impatient behavior of people on the road. Secondly, impatient is selfish in the sense that we are not patient when we are suffering on the way. So it is kind of selfish behavior towards people who are testing our patient. Thirdly, impatient is childish. Actually is we care more to what we want and spontaneously we want it now.

So, i pray that i could get rid of this bad behavior soon so that it will not torture people around me. ^-^

"Patient is the path to contentment"

Meaningless Life

Have been few months i didn't do what i supposed to testify here for God. Well, i have tinged of guilty though. I pretty mind my day-by-day business but indeed the direction becomes blurrer and ambiguous due to the timeframe.

Sometime i work from 9am to 7 or 8pm night, after work what i knew and bring back home is only tiredness and exhausted. Other than that, i think is none. There was time i thought i really lost my future direction included my career prospectus, my future family, etc. Finally i will ponder "What am i doing now and what is the result i want to get?" Don't you feel the same?

Supposedly, people study and work so hard for a prosperity in future. So, whatever work it is, we will striving and accept the job either is out of our willingness or not for the sake of future's prosperity. Though we got all these what we desired in our life, but we still not satisfied with it and wanted to desire more of it. Yea...we are human beings who will not feel contentment at all. What would happen is we finally worn out by all the stressors come to us such as financial, family, workplace, personality and others. So, i will always pray that we as God's children will not easily follow the ways in this world, but instead will change the ways of this world. Life is not supposed to be like this meaningless, but is colourful filled by God's grace and love.

What i need is the strength to be more FAITH in this life which God granted to me. I have to always rejoice and feel Content in this life. Then, i can only get rid of most of the stressors in my life.

Faith Awaken!!!

I been so far didnt take the initiative to write here since i been busy with my life. But on the other hand, i feel guilty of it because i dont really spend time to serve God in this area as well. Well, once again, my commitment is not so strong here yet. Sorry frens...

Recently there are a series of heart breaking news which really strike me off from my busyness. When i heard the news, my response is "ok, so poor of the this nation." That's it! So cruel i was. But the more i saw and heard about the consequences about all those heart breaking news, i found it is not that's it. There were indeed so many people's lives have been lost in these outbreaks. "Human lives" - which God's precious people's lives!!! What could we help them?!! Are we still can go back to our own comfort zone and continue our busyness in life? Or otherwise?!!

For me as a christian, supposedly i care not only myself, my family members, my loved one, relatives and friends. But instead, through these incidents, God really struck me off and awake me with what i am doing daily. Are they really important to me and i can bring all these achievements to heaven?!! NOPE, not at all! I really sad to myself.

I hope that all of us would continue to stand firm in our faith and work everything out just for God. We should care about God's business in the heaven. Through this also give me encouragement toward the will of God for the nations in this world (Matthew 28). I believed ahead of us there are a lot of challenges may be somewhat our faith will be shaken, thus before the coming of them, let's put our FAITH standstill in the mountain which will be easily shaken in the near future.

"With each new day my thought shall be of all that Christ has done for me; i 'll think about His love and care, then face the day with FAITH and PRAYER!!!" - D.De Hann -

White Paper

Yesterday when i was in the Praise & Worship section, i had a vision from God. In the vision, i saw that there were 2 pieces of paper.

These 2 piece of paper actually dictated us, as a children for God. One is plain and white paper, and another is paper. The plain paper potrayed us as children of God on this earth. Maybe somehow we may easily influenced and affected by the surroundings. But we willing to take the initiative to make it white like snow by knowing God and surrender our lives to God. We desire and thirst for God's word to be poured on this white paper. We ourselves have to always beware that who is the Writer on this paper. In contrary, which is full of stains, dirty laguages and words, very messy lives and even dont have extra spaces to write something on that sheet of paper.

From these pictures, God gave me this vision to teach me that we have to be Holy because God is Holy. He cant stand us whose lives full of sins and not willing to back to God's kingdom. We must not disturbed by the evil's scheme and started to choose to stay far away from God. God is always welcome us back to Him as He stretch up His arms for us!!! God is the Writer in our lives, He will make our lives more abundance and colourful.

"As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us".
(Ps. 103:12 NIV)

"You will tread our sins underfoot" (Mic. 7:19 NIV).

"Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow" (Isa. 1:18 NIV).

Keep looking for God for His forgiveness of our sins....

The Second Coming of Jesus?

"If you hear people having visions and special messages from God about this (the day of the Lord has already begun), or letters that are supposed to have come from me, dont believe them. Dont be carried away and deceived, regardless of what they say. " - 2 Thessalonians 2:2-3

Nowaday, we may heard the issues about the second coming of Jesus; in the other words, the Judgment Day. This issue will be stir up especially when there is a big and severe disastrous in the world. Then, people will start to may be blaming about God's compassionate, some may start to realize about God's presence....so and so. But some of the christians started to worry about this because they realized that they dont even deserved to called to be christian and what going to happen to them in the Judgment of God.

Well, in Thessalonica, Paul challenged the people shouldnt be so panic or to be deceived by what was happening or what going to happen. Instead, he told that we should stand firm in teh faith and hold on to the word of God. This is a wise preparation for us !!!

This passage really teach me and check myself whether i am rooted in God's word or something else on this earth. Should i worry too much if i rooted in God's word? NO!!!

Let's prepare ourselves for the coming of Jesus with rejoice !!!

Father's Day

Father's Day is coming soon! Every year i celebrate for my parent with cake. I didnt have chance to celebrate with them last 2 years since i was studied in Australia. Every year i feel the same, just wanted to celebrate with them and make them happy.

This year, i have a bit weird feeling is - i not only physically be with them, celebrate with them. But i really wanted them to be happy everyday in their life. For them, they have not so much hope for the day - what they wear, what they eat, but deep in their heart they hope we can care and concern for them, we can living happily. No matter how much you wealth on this earth, it is not important for them. Since i grown up, i am proud and happy for my parent. Though we are not rich enough, but i am content with my parent, siblings......What i always pray for them is not what their achievement is, but is they will delight Lord in everything they do on this earth.

My father is not a believer, though he is free thinker. Day by day in my walk with God, my father is not so happy because we all in this family became christian. What he worry is we are far off him and laid him behind. For sometime, i will be very angry with my father if i found his stubborness towards us about what we believed. Though somehow in my mind, there is once sweet memory whcih always stir up and makes me feel happy for my father. The picture is this - when i was a child, my father used to holding my hand while we crossing the road. This is really a sweet memory for me. My father is such a good, gentle and protective father for me in the past. Nowaday, when i angry with my father because of his objection towards christianity, this pciture will automatically comes out from my mind and remind me that he was such a good father. Though he angry with us and does so many things to show his objection towards our christianity. But i told myself i shouldnt be angry with him since what he does he might not know. That's why we need to bring the good news to him as soon as possible. In my mind, God always remind me to keep praying for my father is the only thing that i can do!

Thanks God for molding my attitude towards my father as well as those unbelivers on this earth. I pray that i will keep dwelling in His prayer guidance so that i could please Him in everything that i do. Amen....

Know To Fear God

As Ezekiel 33: 27 - 33 says

27 "Say this to them: 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: As surely as I live, those who are left in the ruins will fall by the sword, those out in the country I will give to the wild animals to be devoured, and those in strongholds and caves will die of a plague. 28 I will make the land a desolate waste, and her proud strength will come to an end, and the mountains of Israel will become desolate so that no one will cross them. 29 Then they will know that I am the LORD, when I have made the land a desolate waste because of all the detestable things they have done.'

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From the above mentioned verses, God has shown us in the Old Testament that indeed He has wrath upon the nations. Though He is merciful, kindness, lovely God; but He also a righteous and just God too!!!

So many times we did sin against God, rebelled Him, forsake Him; but His companssionate is so much far outweight of our sins. He did forgive us and draw us back to Him. He did all these not based on our own efforts, but is His merciful upon this nation.In every incident, God will show us that what area in our lives is definitely wrong and detest by Him. Then He is waiting for our repentance and confession about our own sins to Him. Everytime, He will show us His mighty name and soverignty of Him. If we know how to fear Him and see His holy wrath, then we should do what He calls us to do in order to reconcile back to Him through the precious blood of Jesus.

Today, God i pray that you will teach me to know how to fear You, and see your Holy Wrath. So that i will walk in the righteous path and everything that i do will definitely honor and glorify you. Thank you, Lord!Amen......